Hi Jeff, I don't think you ever get over the fear of recurrence, but eventually you get some perspective and it doesn't consume every waking moment. It was the worst right after treatment ended because it was the first time we could come up for air and think about it. It felt weird not to have the daily appointments, unsettling.

In the past year we've calmed down a lot and learned to go with the flow. Jack's had 3 biopsies and an endoscopy, things that lit up on his PET scans, unidentified "areas of concern" and more doctors appointments than I can count. Living with cancer is very different than being treated for it and we each have to find our own way of making sense of that one.

You'll find your balance at some point. Regards JoAnne