Peace,
I just had my surgery two weeks ago. One of the first questions I got after arriving at the hospital was "do you feel that you need something to relax you?" And then they promised me that they would be hitting me with pain meds before I even woke up. As soon as I woke, I felt I needed more relief and they gave me something right away. They do NOT want you to be in pain and they work very hard at keeping you comfortable.
You can do this, I promise you. If I can do it, I assure you, you can too.
Amy