I'm sure you are so scared. Who wouldn't be? No, I didn't go through 12hrs. of surgery (mine was 6) so I can't help you there. But, you will get through this. What are you getting done in surgery, and are they waiting till after you finish radiation? Just curious. One more thing, you know you have to talk to your husband, you need to. Sounds like you really need him at this time. We all need someone we can talk to and cry to when going through this. I wish I could help more. Take care, take a deep breath, and after all this sinks in Fight this beast! My thoughts and prayers are with you. Linda