Hey Steph I was wandering about you. I dont have any words of wisdom for you. My mom and best friend has been gone 8 months and i still find myself feeling the same as you. The anger does seem to get a little better, but i do still blame the doctors. I find the hardest part for me is being strong for my dad, he just recently retired and they had so many dreams, and that breaks my heart. I find myself daily calling when he is not home just to hear my mom on the answering machine. It brings comfort just to hear her voice. In time i hope it gets easier for all of us. Something I had found recently that my mom had jotted down.

Dream as if you'll live forever, Live as though
you'll die tommorow.

That is how I am now tryin to live my life.