Gosh Bette, you have had a go of it. I'm glad Charm gave you that advice. Good stuff. I take xanax still since about the last week of Kev's tx and that was a year ago! Just a lot going on here too and it helps me cope. I don't take it every day, just when feeling overwhelmed.
And you can have a vent session anytime!! That's one of the reason's we are here; cuz' we know someone will know how we feel and commisserate with us! Invaluable!!
So sorry for all you are going through.
Kathy

Kathy wife/caregiver to:
Kevin age:53
Dx 7/15/11
HPV16+ SCC Stage IV BOT/R
Non smoker, casual drinker
7/27/11 Cistplatin, taxotere,5FU 2/3week sessions, followed by IMRT 125cgy x 60 (2x daily) w/Erbitux weekly. Last rad 10/26/11. Last Erbitux 10/27/11
PEG placed 9/1/11 Removed 11/8/11
Clear PET 10/12 and 10/13 and ct in 6/14