John,

I understand your frustration and anger, too. The part of recovery you are in now is very difficult and does seem to last forever. It is so hard to see any light at the end of the tunnel especially when you have mouth sores, excess mucous and are generally feeling crappy. But it WILL get better in time. You are among many who have been where you are now. Do your best to get your rest, proper nutrition and hydration. I used to rub my husband's back whenever he got to feeling low. Human touch is a healing thing. Do you have someone who can pamper you? In the meantime, I send you cyber hugs and hang in there. Come back here often and vent.