John, I really understand what you are feeling. Three years ago I was just beginning the journey that you have completed. My doctors did try to prepare me, but nothing could have possibly prepared me for what I went through. My neck got so badly burned by the radiation that they had to stop for a week. To top it all off, because I also had the three strong doses of Cisplatin, I became extremely malnourished and had to be hospitalized a week after I had completed my treatments. Today, while I still have eating and fatigue issues, I am doing quite well. My ENT and my oncologists have reduced my visits to every six months, and damn it, I am going to make it. You will, too! Feel free to come here and vent any time. We are all here for you, and it WILL get better!