Ok...I wish I had seen this post before posting on the other one. So sorry John. You CAN do this. It's ok to be angry and sad and all the other crappy feelings that goes along with this. If you didn't feel this way you wouldn't be human!!
Praying you will find your way through this.
Kathy

Kathy wife/caregiver to:
Kevin age:53
Dx 7/15/11
HPV16+ SCC Stage IV BOT/R
Non smoker, casual drinker
7/27/11 Cistplatin, taxotere,5FU 2/3week sessions, followed by IMRT 125cgy x 60 (2x daily) w/Erbitux weekly. Last rad 10/26/11. Last Erbitux 10/27/11
PEG placed 9/1/11 Removed 11/8/11
Clear PET 10/12 and 10/13 and ct in 6/14