John

Well you were robbed of a healthy youth. You are trapped in your own body. Who would not be angry sad and scared at any age, let alone yours? Bitch away. It's not like we are going to be shocked here at OCF.
I often comment to people that the spiritual effects of Cancer are highly overrated IMO. Perhaps you can amuse yourself by reading a great cartoon book: Cancer made me a shallower person. The author had breast cancer and she died after it became a hit.
Here is a thread from three years ago you may find interesting
Why me