I'm so angry and sad and scared. Im scared that how shitty I feel now will be how I feel forever. I feel like I'm traped in my own body because I can't speak until the mucositus clears. Im angry that I went thru radiation. I feel betrayed that I wasn't given the full picture of what could happen. The way I feel now is a million times worse than my actual operation.
I feel like I've been robbed. Robbed of a lot of things that made life good.

Taking a break from the forum for a while. Thank you so much for your support if you've been supportive.