if i could only turn back the time... in my situation, i should not undergo treatment. my life has never been the same since this tongue cancer hit me. (well actually the second time. yes second time!) well let me just expand those.

i got diagnose with tongue cancer early 2006. i got operated and undergo radiation. after that i thought ill be ok. i have a tube to my nose for about 2 moths and i recover and got back eating normally again. but after a year my cancer came back =(
i undergo operation again but this time partial of my jaw was taken out. and that is the beginning of my life in hell. =( up to this day as of today i hate what happend to me. i even think of killing myself a couple of times. now i dont leave the house anymore... i got tube sticking in my stomach to feed myself. i cant talk clearly because of the operation... i cant mingle with people... my social life is dead... =(
i just keep myself busy on the internet reading and watching movies. ive been like this for 5 years now and its not easy.
btw im only 32 years old. this cancer took my life in early years. i got sick on the peak of my age... =( now i cant work... i cant have a family... thats why im always thinking of killing myself to end my suffering.