Jack - Please DO wait a while before you decide if it's worth it - My son had the same feeling and told me (while recovering from RadTx) that if he had known how bad Tx would affect him he would never have agreed to the Rad. And he was only 33! Meds should definitely be checked out. Some of them have really bad side effects. Before his diagnosis, Paul had recently divorced, his then girlfriend left town, he was out of a job, with no insurance and facing bankruptcy. That was 5+ years ago. Now he has a a great job, a wonderful girlfriend and they just bought a new house! He told me recently that compared to where he was 5 years ago, today his life is better than it ever was even before cancer! Believe it - when someone tells you that things DO get better! Because they really do! So stay with us, and keep moving.