Hi Wendy.
I feel like you do. But I have a negative husband, now has a huge fear of the cancer returning. That is what does my head in. I try by best to remind him of all the positive news he has received from Dr's etc, but it doesn't seem to make a difference. Rod was a concreter, and even after 2 years since diagnoses, and even that he is in remission, even I can't see a possibility of him going back to do what he used to do. He isn't trained to do any thing else. He is fatigued most of the time, and sleeps most of the days unless we have appts we have to attend. I get very lonely. I wish he would get it into his head all the good things, but I'm not in his body, and as they say, no 2 patients are alike. I am glad for you and especially Steve, and very happy for you both and your new future up north, just wish sometimes I had a magic wand. Funny, we are at the opposite end of the spectrum - No one else in our lives understands that radiation is the gift that keeps on giving, and we have been told by Docs, oncologists etc that everything Rod goes through daily - pain, nausea, fatigue etc, might never go away. All I need is a brick wall myself, or a tug of war rope!!....Anyways, I am happy for you both, and you both GO FOR IT!!!!!

xxxxxxx