Hey Billy,

It doesn't end. It just gets lighter and less of a load if you are lucky enough to stay cancer free. I spent four years cancer free and while I was thrilled that I didn't have anymore cancer, I still spend a part of my day feeling sad and wishing for my "old self" back. This type of cancer and it's side effects won't allow us to forget that we had cancer. If I had been through breast cancer, I think I could spend good chunks of time forgetting about it, I'd wear the scars and effects of it under my shirt. But we with oral cance wear our scars on our face and the after affects of treatment affect our mouths, a part of our body that we take for granted.

Go talk to someone, get on some anti depressants, and I CAN promise you that things will get better, so much better thaty you will want to cry with joy about it. But it won't ever end.
Minnie