Billy,
You have strength beyond your own belief. I have read your ups and downs. I know you are eager to get back to "normal". Billy, you have a new normal that you have to get used to. Some of your normal you have not experienced yet. I understand that when someone puts a new stop sign on a street thet you have travelled 1000 times, might get you down but consider change a good thing.
You are stonger than you think and i have always believed that.
Please, continue having faith in yourself and not letting the new stop signs affect your positive attitude.

God Bless You Billy,

Mike