I just got home from work and starting reading these responses and now have tears in my eyes. I really appreciate each and every one of you taking the time to respond. I know this has been very difficult for everyone and this is by far the hardest thing I have ever had to deal with.

Like I said in my first post, I think I went back to work too soon but I had no choice. My body is run down and when I get tired my mind pretty much does what it wants to do... LOL

I am really looking forward to seeing the doc and counselor on Wednesday. I am hoping that they can help. I dont expect miracles to happen overnight but I sure hope something changes real soon.

Nelie, I think I am focusing too much on everything that is wrong and not enough on the things that are blessings. I am hoping there again that the counselor can maybe teach me a new way of thinking. I always seem to look at the negative instead of the positive.

Thanks again for everyone responding,
Billy