Billy, Yes, it will get better. Will it end? tough question because I feel we all will have to live with this always. I'm not meaning the cancer, just the journey we have been on. I'm one year and about 4mos. post treatment, and I feel great. It took me about 8 mos. to get back to work, and I honestly wasn't as healthy as I am now. So maybe you need to give yourself some time to heal. You do have a good bit of obstacles to overcome, but you'll get through them. Don't give up, you've shown such strength getting through the treatment and surgery, try to get through this. Talking to someone will definetly help. Take care of yourself, and keep telling yourself it will get better. Linda