We've experienced steroid induced something... he didn't take them for long, but we referred to them as the day before the a**#$%^ comes out pills. As the woman that loves this man and is devastated by this disease right along with him, I say 100% it's the cancer. We'd never have these issues without all the added trauma. I am struggling now with the choice to believe this was an isolated incident. His anger still seethes out at times. It's like living with Dr. Jekyll... two completely different creatures. I don't know which I will find when I go to talk to my husband. And it hurts something fierce when I really need my lover my friend to share a moment of comfort, but he's lost in a dark place. He admits he's in a very dark place right now. I told him I knew and that it was okay, I just would like to know if he wants help out of that place. Anyway, he isn't coming with me to talk to the counselor today, I am going by myself, but he mentioned the possibility of going back to talk to the one he saw before. Not much else I can say right now.
CG to my husband, Matt. Dx June 2009 Stage IV Oropharengeal SCC right tonsil primary with distant metastases. Rad to neck- Surgeries to lungs- Every avail chemo - ran out of options Jan 2012, called for hospice help Feb 2012, at rest March 19, 2012.
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