Lisa,

You are getting some great advice here. I also think you should see your family doctor and tell him/her how lonely and isolated you feel. I went through a similar experience a year ago. I remember sobbing with my doctor, I felt like I had hit bottom and could not find my way out of that pit. I am on an antidepressant, and went to cognitive therapy, and also joined a support group for family members with cancer. All of it has made the difference. I feel like I got myself back.

This is the time for you to explore those things, that for years you had an interest in, but said "someday". You never know how a casual conversation can blossom into a lifelong friendship. You have much to offer others. You may not know what that is but with some time it will become clear. Don't give up.

OCF is a wonderful group of people who will support you always. I am looking forward to meeting some of my OCF buddies for the first time on April 24th when we will all participate in an event in Philly.

All my best--
Anita