"Above & Beyond" Member (500+ posts) Joined: Aug 2008 Posts: 531 | I have and yeah it is really weird I don't crave or really want one the only time is when everyone goes "outside" it is the social aspect that I am missing...everyone is being very curtious about it all but it doesn't really even bother me around it...it is true oc is a good motivator to quit...but I have quit several times before and not made it...this time I feel differently and well I do know what happens if I have just one...I just gotta remember once I am better that's when it will be harder...when all the healing is done is when I think I will have a harder time with the "just one"....todate have not had any..but know where all of them are including lighters and let's face it is up to me...and I am marching forward one day at a time concerning smoking healing and well just about everything...Nobody plans to fall of the wagon with any addiction so for today (and can only speak for today) I choose not to smoke and until I get rid of the "wanting" to smoke it still is a fight and a choice...anyway one more day the battle of smoking is being won for me...I do have support from family in their own way...and I love them for it cause it is their choice too.I can't bully push lecture all I can do is just be me and hope they don't have the same route I have had. I was just pissed at that nurse she was trying to bully my husband and basically tell him that it would be his fault if I started again but it isn't it is MY choice...I just didn't think it was ok for her to although I understand her line of thinking I just didn't agree with it...
Dianne..treatment at cc at Victoria Hospital, London, Ontario...insulin dependant, Surgery Sept 8/08 Tracheotomy,composite resection and bilateral neck dissection, left radial forearm free flap... T2N0 squamous cell carcinoma. No radiation A little over 2 yrs clear YAY
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