Hi Sandy,
I hear what you saying. People tell me that I should focus on what may happen in the future. But, how can I not when I know how this cancer works and I know that I will constantly be looking over my shoulder to see if its back. To me that is a real burdon. I'm not the same anymore after my surgery. I don't see how my husband will ever be interested in kissing me again. I talk funny and I can't taste my food. Maybe someday I too will be satisfied that I am still alive. Kelli Keller