Ginny- thank you. I am having such a time dealing with these mood swings he is having and yes, I have already broken down more than once, esp. when he starts talking about not being able to make it. I am trying to keep exercising (my outlet) but it is hard with his radiation schedule and my normal job that I have to work. I actually started working before we met at a gym as an instructor so that I could have fun and get paid for it- but I have had to miss teaching so much in the last month that I dont even enjoy it as much. I just want to scream sometimes for the past to come back- but I know that will not happen. My problem? now I am not sleeping because of this. I am already on meds because of this problem before, so I cant take more. I cant fall apart, but I cant leave him either...I love him too much. All I keep doing is praying for a solution...