Sara,
You hang in there sweetie. I, too, as a caregiver cried so much and felt so alone at times. While Dan slept off the treatments (especially from late middle to after end), I cried and prayed and just "nightmared" about the future. My biggest support was comfort after praying to God and a small support group from our church that really helped (from meals to just saying I love you and I care). My boys are grown, but it has been very hard for all of us. It must be very hard to have a small one running around with so much energy! Although, I love little ones and I am sure it is also a highlight! I walked our dog everyday and cried for Dan and others and ask God for healing. The rest is really out of our hands. But every nite I came to this board and got so much encouragement at other stories and bravery. You and your family are in my prayers!
Debbie