Hi di so sorry to hear that x I'm not coping inside but trying to on the outside x dads very down started radiation today his face is so so swollen his lips look like they could pop x I was dressing his skin graft other night and I noticed a lump nobody seems concerned except me so will have to wait and see x it's weeping and I think looks like his other tumour did ;( I really really hope I'm wrong , dads just sleeping all the time and spends a lot of the day in bed I'm thinking this is what's causing the swelling as his not upright so it won't drain away x very very hard to see them like this I cry when I leave but never in front of him because he doesn't like to see me like that xx I hope you find done strength inside to help X and I completely understand how your feeling as my heart is broken to ;(( xx and thankyou for the kind wishes alpaca xx