Jsy

It's perfectly normal to worry about the Petscan in March especially since petscans have such a high rate of false positives. I'm pretty nervous about my upcoming 3 month MRI myself especially since I'm pretty much out of options if this is bad. Still, focus on today, Celebrate each little recovery of Jen's. If worrying could stop a recurrence, I would never had had even one, the way my wife worried and still worries.
Easy to say, but hard to do.
You mention your faith, and that's a good source of strength for many posters. I still get tears hearing the song Hallelujah - with its verses dealing with keeping the faith in the strength of adversity and sorrow like we all experience
[quote]It's not a cry you can hear at night
it's not somebody who has seen the light:
it's a cold and it's a broken Hallelujah...
there's a blaze of light in every word
It doesn't matter which you heard
The holy or the broken Hallelujah...
And even though it all went wrong
I'll stand before the Lord of Song
With nothing on my tongue but Hallelujah
[/quote]
So even though so many many things are wrong about what you and Jen have endured, there is still a lot of good news and new life with your child. If you can focus on that, it does help.
I just realized I'm on my 13th scan this Sunday and while I do try to practice what I preach, it's hard. Last but not least, I think that the anticipation and worry over scans is much worse for caregivers like yourself than for patients like myself. At least that's true in my household.
Keep the Faith
Charm