Jane - you are doing a great job. Being a caregiver is one of those learn-on-the-job things. You learn as you go and believe me you will get the very best help here with all kinds of experienced advice and suggestions. Just keep on going one day at a time - or moment to moment if need be. When I became a CG to my son, I was a basket case of emotions and without everyone's help here at OCF, I don't know what would have happened to us. You are in a good place for lots of support.