Hi Bean,

You seem the type to carry the weight of the world on your shoulders adverse to asking for help from those to whom you are closest. Sometimes it is a gift to allow people who love you to do the giving for a change--it is generous to receive instead of always giving. Don't be afraid to involve your family. Allow them to be the support you are to them. If this is just a wake-up call, it is an easier opportunity to involve them in what you have been feeling.

Please try to distract yourself until you see your ENT on the 29th. Try to occupy your mind with activities you enjoy. Worrying is a waste of energy and can be physically harmful. When you start thinking about what can go wrong, switch channels and think of all that is going well. After all, it could be so much worse. The pathology could have been positive for a difficult to address malignancy.

Try to keep your eyes on a happy future with your family. Be gentle with yourself. Treat yourself kindly and patiently. Sending you wishes for peace and contentment.

Sandy