Nate- The first year I constantly had anxiety about every little lump or bump. I thought for sure I felt something under my cheek bone and then on my collarbone. I was a freakin' basket case! Before every scan I was a mess. but over time I've just relaxed about it - mostly because the odds of a reoccurance for me now are very low.

What you are feeling is completely normal. I wish there was something that could help you to feel less anxious I take Ativan at night sometimes when I get anxious and have insomnia because I stay up thinking about bad stuff. Its really easy to spiral into a negative thought pattern.

The best thing is to just take one day at a time. Your body has gone through major assault so be patient with the healing. You still have more treatment to go through so just be good to yourself. Distract yourself as much as possible with the things that make you happy and excited about this precious life we have. You've been given the gift of knowledge that life IS so precious... even the bad days, the sad days and the rainy no good bad days. Every day is a gift.

Hang in there- and yes do tr some anti-anxiety meds if you think they might help.

Sending you healing vibes
XO Kate