Nathan,

I say your name and smile...my brother and best friend's name is Nathan. It's a good name.

Nathan, right now, your body is going through so very much. All of the medications the mental and emotional stress etc...it's going to take a toll. If you weren't feeling this way, you wouldn't be human.

The good thing is, you have people on these boards that can help and relate to you, we've been in a similar situation. I struggle everyday with the feelings you have. The key to getting through it is support, knowing you can't do it alone and knowing that you are not alone...because you are not, we are here with you.

I've put on my brave face and pounded my chest, determined to be strong enough to pull myself through this, however realized that I had the cards stacked against me. The treatment we undergo and the medications we have to take make it an unfair fight if you go it alone. The smart decision is to rally the troops and use any and all means possible to keep mentally and emotionally strong. This would include support groups (like OCF), counseling and medication.

Get into a counselor, a local support group or church. Ask your medical professionals about medications to help battle the chemical imbalances the treatments, medications and stresses cause...and don't stop reaching out. Use these boards to get it all out, when you do you're not only helping yourself, but others who aren't strong enough to voice it themselves.

Keep in the fight my friend, let's keep at this thing we call life while we can.

Your friend,

Eric