Nate, sorry it is hitting you so bad right now. You may be suffering from depression as well as side effects of drugs you are on, etc. Be sure to tell Dr. or get help with a group of survivors locally. You are SO close to getting started, and with each treatment down, there is one less to do so start the countdown instead of the counting up!
I have my simulation today - should be interesting to see how it all works. I am looking into buying the honey as noted in the link I sent you. Amazon has it...someone mentioned buying things through there with a special link gives money back to oral cancer...I can't find the link...
My son is named Nathan as well...:o) Hang in there...you have a couple of rough months, then it should start to look up. Remember, we are in this together. I start Monday as well with radiation.
Michele in IL