im tired of
constantly feeling heartbroken
worried for my mother
worried how she feels
worried about her fistula opening up wider each day
worried about how long its taking for surgery
worried that MD Anderson will say 'theres nothing we can do'
worried how long we'll have to wait to do surgery with her Dr at home if thats the case
worried if shes had her medicine
worried that shes fallen over while walking around the yard
worried that everyone morning when i go to check on her that she wont be alive
im sick of being away from home and sleeping on this crappy bed.
sick of my stepfather keeping me up every night with the tv b/c he watches it with the volume on FULL BLAST
sad that i planted a garden at home and now its all dead because i havent been home in a month
sad that every time i look at my mom i wonder if its going to be one of the last times. or one of the last times we say goodnight.
sick of calling ppl to make appointments and fax papers to prove she needs help.
sick of WAITING ON EVERYONE IN THE MEDICAL FIELD TO HELP US. That extends to even the idiots at the pharmacy. I feel like all we do is hurry up and wait for others.
sick of not having any help from family

sorry to hijack your thread wendy. it felt like it was good place to let it all out