Thanks everyone for your words of encouragment. Last week was for what ever reason extra tough for me. I was down and tired and I don't know what else. But I have been spending more time here, and I guess, it must be helping me feel less alone. I am still afraid, and I guess I always will be but at least I know that I am not alone and I am going to try to spend more time here where people that can relate to what I am going through will help me to deal with my fears and my stuggles. God bless each and everyone one of you.