Lisa,
First of all you are not weak. I had to get one some medication to help me get through. I too felt like it was for th weak, but noe realize if I did not have it I would not be out of bed walking around enjoying life as much as I can. I too understand having to be strong for kids as I too have young ones. It doesn't hurt sometimes to let them know you are worried and scared so that they too ca feel safe knowing that they are not the only ones worried and scared. Your kids will be fine through all this and so will you and your husband. Sorry that you had to join us, but glad you are here. rant and rave all you need to.