Tamara,
I wish there were something to say that will help you. I read your post several times and recalled what happened to my brother. Selfishly, I wish he were still here.... better, yes but anyway would be fine, for me. ME being the key word. He did suffer and it pained my very soul to see him. Don't know if they or we will know when its time to go but take the time to thank him and tell him you love him. It's been alomst a year since my Jorge is gone and it still feels as if it were yesterday. Take care Tamara. We walk with you.

Noemi

Brother diagnosed SCC August 2005, radiation and chemo- 2 rounds, total glossectomy Sept. 2007, passed away May 21, 2008
"Everyday is beautiful" he stated on a cold and foggy Chicago winter day.