Liz

I dont consider that at any time you were self pitying ..just venting a we all do !! i wasn't a care giver so I dunno...I also didnt go through Rad. But I think my hardest emotional time was after it was done ( surgery ) ..THat is when it hit. I wanted to be better and I wasnt and The tumor was gone so , I cant explain it ..LIke I knew my life was different , I could feel it , I didnt want it to e different and i was angery and frustarted and Relieved as well that it was done ..But wasnt good at expressing it . tearful more then anything. and my family didnt understand, because it was over the cancer was gone for now , but as much as it is gone , there is a part of it thAT IS ALWAYS WITH YOU.. I am sure it is the same for you caregivers to.. I will tell you I have the UTMOST RESPECT and APPRECIATION and ADMIRATION for those of you who are caregivers, Because even as a Patient , I would say to walk in your shoes can be just a difficult as ours ,,only in different ways . SO TO ALL OF YOU OUT THERE WHO ARE THE CAREGIVERS ...I SEND YOU ALL THANKS AND ((((hugs)))) FOR THE AMOUNT OF STRENGTH YOU BRING TO THOSE IN NEED! Not everyone can do what you do, you are all entilted to your bad days just as we are ....SO much heartfelt wishes , respect and love to you all !

Shar