Liz

By no means are you a monster, you have just been through what is probably the worst if not one of the owrst times of your life....How much can one endure with complete sanity ? You have missed so much ..Yet at the same time been such a compassionate and wonderful person who has given so much !! Anyone would be honored to have you by there side I know I would. And missing your normal life and the people in it..is "NORMAL". And it must have been so hard do ing it alone. The fact you wanna take him back to your home ...so you can have your support group is by no means HORRIBLE, it is more then understandable. And I think for Robin going to the pub...it was probably him showin himself that he isnt going to let this change him,,somtimes we all just have to do somthing to prove to oursleves that we are still that same person. And I wish for you and your health...that maybe you could quit smoking , I am sure that you well know what the possible consequences are ! LIz My heart and thoughts are with you ......I have been following your story with many tears and even some giggles....my heart and admiration are with you and I am sending you (((((HUGS))))) across the ocean !!

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