Liz - Anne Marie just said it all. I didn't find this website until my husband was through with his treatment. I know exactly how you feel - there were times when I just needed to talk to someone about HOW I FELT but my husband was so sick I didn't want him to feel any worse. Sure we all have our family support and love but unless they have been down this road, it is hard to explain. It does get better - our guys recover and I can say that our relationship is better (34 years of marriage). Now I have been able to tell him about my journey through his treatment. You might want to check with your hospital and see if they have a support group that you can join or one time I talked to the social worker and she was very helpful. Just know we are here for you - Take care, take deep breaths and it will get better. I'm coming to England in May for the Chelsea Flower Show! I had to postpone it last year due to THE BIG C - but I'm coming this year!

Marty