Liz - I wish I could be there just to hold you and let you feel the compassion we have for you. You have been so strong in all of this and have shown the depth of your love for Robin in countless ways. There are so many changes in this cancer journey that we are faced with and have to adapt to. Just when you get used to one "routine" it ends and there is another one to get used to and accept or fight. I, too, felt very anxious and missed the routine of going to the hospital every day when my son's treatment ended. I missed the familiarity of the radiation waiting room, the people that were there to talk to, the very sweet "Cookie Lady" who offered cookies to everyone (when most didn't feel like a cookie) Of course any change in life - whether it is good or not so good brings a feeling of stress and loss - and we react in different ways just so we can survive and try to hang on to some semblance of "normal" and all the while grieving over what once was and searching for the "new normal". The very worst times for most of us are the three weeks post Tx. Try to hang in there just a little while and be good to yourself, too. Things will get better!