Gordon,
I have been following your posts, and haven't been able to come up with anything the others haven't already expressed (much better than I ever could). But I just wanted to add my sorrow for your grief over the loss of your "supposed-friends" and family, the loss of your old self-image and the aching in your heart. If you were as callous as the people in your "family", you might not even feel the pain as sharply! So, in my book, thats 100 extra points for you!
(Remember them when all the reconstruction surgery is done, and you look like Brad Pitt and they all want to come flocking back) laugh

Live Well,
Andrea

SCC L lat tongue,Dx 9/15/05 T1N0MX L MND and L lateral hemiglossectomy 10/03/05. Recurrence 11/15/06 2nd surgery 12/04/06 hemiglossectomy 3rd surgery 01/15/07 tonsillectomy Radiation 01/25/07 to 03/08/07 3-D/CRT X 30