Gordon,

I'm so sorry to hear all that you are going through - mentally and physically. I can understand your feelings of not wanting to face the world. My sister, Kim, lost the entire right side of her neck (literally nothing was there) and she dreaded facing people on the way to her appointments. I don't know what advice I can give you about how to get through that. Keep in mind that in time, the scars will fade, the swelling will go down, and you will heal.

As for the family situation, I can completely relate. We had several members of our family disappear while Kim was battling her cancer. It's very stressful and hurtful to feel that your family doesn't care. I would personally ask them for their help. I know it sucks to have to ask since it's like they should automatically show support, but they won't know you need them if you don't. Also don't be afraid to tell them what you need. I think the caregivers and family often feel helpless since they don't exactly know what to do to help.

I pray that God gives you all the mental and physical strength you need and that your family responds in a supportive and loving manner.

God Bless you