Hello Gordon
I did get the pics, and you know what? Not as bad as I was expecting to see.

Give yourself time to heal.

I am sorry your family has not come to your aid as you had hoped. Some folks just do not know how to deal with sickness of any kind.
I do believe Jen is right ...a support group would really help right now.
Concentrating on your recovery is the most important part of your life at the moment. I hate to see you wasting precious energy getting irritated and angry with your family.
Forget them for now!
Take love and support from your friends who love you, they are your lifeline to recovery.
You will find as time goes on and the scars fade , and they will, that staying healthy will become your fist priority.
Hopefully you will never smoke again, I have known a few who continued to and I just do not understand why. I just cannot think of any reason why any person with half a brain would do that!

Try and chill a little Gordon, take some deep breaths and think positive thoughts. As we like to tell folks on the board, there is light at the end of this big old tunnel! Hang in there.
We will be right here for you.

Take Care
Marica