Rosie,

How do you cope? I am just wondering because the loss of someone has been forefront on my mind this week.

My husband developed neutropenic fever and was suffering from an infection and has been in the hospital all this week. I have worried all week that something dreadful was going to happen. Today luck came to the rescue and raised his count considerably. But I cannot help the fact that the last few days, everytime I go to the hospital (which is early every morning) that I am going to arrive to discover the most dreadful news.

I know that if he does not make it, (no matter how positive I am I know that some people don't) that it will take an army to get me out of bed much less to rejoin the human race.

I hope that it doesn't bother you that I ask. If it does you are certainly under no obligation to answer. It is just that the thought of how to move on after has been on my mind a lot this week and I am not really sure that I would have the strength to continue.

Thanks,
Cindy