I needed to write to you, I feel I don't know how much more of Marcy's suffering I can watch, I am numb, nothing feels real..She wants me with her all the time because she is so scared. I am watching her weight dwindle away, her face gets bigger everyday, the tumors on her face and neck are so bad, they cover her entire throat, they are huge and scabby and white. I am not sure how she can look at it grow everyday. She is tired of wearing diapers and having no control of her bowels. Her pain is somewhat under control at the time. I am on my fourth week off from work now, I know I have to go back, but it doesn't seem possible right now. Marcy is staying with my mom and hospice comes in twice a week. Is her face going to swell until it explodes?....her lip continues to get bigger too, my beautiful sister .........I just needed to write before I head back over to my mom's today.. The tears are falling and I don't know anymore......
Michelle