Petey: Would that we live closer than we do! You have caused me to cry my first tears of the day! I can relate to MUCH of what you're saying. As a recovering alcoholic myself, I too have alienated family members, including my oldest son who has absolutely been the light of my life for 38 years. I haven't had a drink in more than seven months. That is NOT to say that I haven't struggled these past few weeks particularly, just talking myself OUT of going to the ABC store! BEFORE I read your post, that old urging was surely trying to take over. The tears I'm sheding now are for you, also in relief for me, in that I'm sure I won't make that trip to the liquor store today. My constant prayers today are for you! Your courage is awe-inspring! Hang in there, friend!