Desiree,
These are trying times for you, and it is very understandable that you don't want to leave your children. It sounds like medically you are in good hands.
I do want to say that Brian always means well. He has dedicated himself to helping those of us who are suffering from this dreaded disease and time and time again he has shared his knowledge with me when I had questions about my own treatment. His committment is awesome and I respect him highly.
Just know that Brian is very forthright in his advocacy against this disease and everything that he wrote was what he believed was in your best interest. His only motive was to get you the best treatment possible.
I am sorry that some of the suggestions of peoople here offended or troubled you. These are extremely trying times for you...certainly the craziest part of the whole process. All of this will sort itself out and you will make the best decision after consultaions. Then things will settle down, be less traumatic and you will get treated and get better.
Take care,
Danny G.