Rayster - I'll chime in even though my part of the road on this particular journey was a great deal less bumpy than yours will likely prove to be. It might be helpful if you read Stephen Jay Gould's account of his cancer. Perhaps you know about him. He of course was a brilliant scientist, and he knew that statistics are exactly that: just figures that help people get their mind around large-scale events. They are entirely objective and each of us is different. You say you like numbers (I can't even remember how to do long division...) so you'll understand this more than I. Here's a brief about him:
https://www.mesothelioma.com/blog/a...ma-stephen-jay-goulds-cancer-journey.htmIt's important to note that his type of cancer was far less survivable than what we all face (generally speaking), yet he got through it for many, many years.
Other than that I have nothing to offer but my good thoughts and friendship. My own H&N cancer experience was of course rough, but I got through it and so will you. You're part of our family now and we're here to help, to cheer, and to support whatever you're going through.
