I know what you mean! I was pissed too! How dare cancer come in and screw things up like it did!
I divorced a 2nd time in 2006. Practically wiped me out. November of 2007 I had a heart attack and triple bypass surgery. I didn't have insurance. That wiped me out. I struggled for a couple of years. Several times I thought I'd be out on the street.
Then I got a job in the music industry. I had over 11 years experience and it was the perfect fit. After a 15 year hiatus, I started playing music again, and was gaining success. I met Marcia in October of 2010. My life was going well for the first time in 5 years.
I had my 2nd heart attack in October of 2012. The bypasses arteries were fine. Three others were blocked. One at 99%. The doctors were surprised I came away relatively unscathed. Three stents later I was home and back to work. I had the swollen glands since August of 2012 and mentioned them in the hospital but their attention was on my heart.
November of 2012 was a visit to the ENT's office, biopsy and DX'd SCC stage III or IV. You gotta be kidding me! Cancer? F that! I have too many things going on to deal with cancer. I want to propose to my girlfriend, I have gigs booked into March of 2013!
Yeah... I was pissed.
I went into treatment pissed. I got beat down, kicked, punched and pummeled for 6 weeks but kept fighting back. I have too much to do!
The added aggression served me well in the fight.
Positive thoughts and prayers
"T"