I think everyone has such thoughts when times are tough, and Charm summed everything up nicely. I had a DNR, and did worse, when I was in the hospital for several months, paraylized, lost 110lbs in a few weeks, with no sign of recovery or hope, as a result of my first treatment, which thankfully was not needed. Actually, the hospital tied me to the bed for my own protection for a few days one time. Today, you would not even know what I went through unless I told you. Your wife made improvements, Medicine and technology is improving, and there is always hope, and ways to work around any disabilities, which may only be temporary. Maybe your wife needs professional help as a suggestion. Good luck with everything.


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11/09 Taxo Cisp 5-FU, 6 Months Hosp
01/11 35 IMRT 70Gy 7 Wks
06/11 30 HBO
08/11 RND PNI
06/12 SND PNI LVI
08/12 RND Pec Flap IORT 12 Gy
10/12 25 IMRT 50Gy 6 Wks Taxo Erbitux
10/13 SND
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12/13 25 Protons 50Gy 6 Wks Carbo
11/14 All Teeth Extract 30 HBO
03/15 Sequestromy Buccal Flap ORN
09/16 Mandibulectomy Fib Flap Sternotomy
04/17 Regraft hypergranulation Donor Site
06/17 Heart Attack Stent
02/19 Finally Cancer Free Took 10 yrs