Bette - it will get better and time will soften the hurt you are feeling. Stay close to family and friends that can help you share the grief. I'm sure Reggie is close to you in spirit, holding you in his arms and helping to soften the sadness. Such good and thoughtful suggestions you have received above. Take your own time to get thru the sadness and small steps toward the happier moments you shared with Reggie. Stay with us here so we know how you are doing.