I feel your pain, i am still struggling with missing my husband as well...were never apart for very long...a lot of emptiness. I am doing my best to work through it, but staying busy is what is working for me, took up zumba to try and let out my frustrations and to help get me in shape and be able to sleep at night, it is lonely at night, since my daughter is grown and not here with me. It has been 6 months for me, and i still cry when i am home alone or if someone i know talks about him, not sure when that will get better.

CG to Joel 1st tumor flr of mouth 1998, 38 rad trmts 2nd tumor back of mouth/throat, rad neck, part remvl of jaw, soft palate rmvl, no chemo or rad, has a peg tube since dec 2011.Frmr smkr 25yrs ago, drinker, worked in HVAC indus 35yrs. 3rd dx on 6/20/12, hospice6/29/12, died July 17, 2012